The Journey : Prologue

The year was 2013. It was me getting married to the person I’ve known for 6 months and looking forward to build a family with him. I can see myself; holding our first baby.

2015 and not a sign of embryo in my womb. More than thirty times my body failed me.

I wasn’t sad, rather worried. I still remember seeing Dr Adilah of Hospital Pantai for the third time. It was in 2014. She was looking at my black and white HSG report. It didn’t look good.

‘Suspected Adenomyosis and tubal blockage’

There. After two cycles of clomid with twice the dosage on the second time, she gave me a choice; Laparoscopy or IUI.

I cried on my way back. I remember back in 2010 I had a biopsy for fibroadenoma. Could it be from the same cause?

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true story : fibroadenoma

apakah? macam bunyi pelik saja kan? i think most of my closest friends already know about this ; early this year i'd been diagnosed with fibroadenoma and i was admitted to the hospital to undergo biopsy to remove the tumor. tumor huh? sounds like a big deal. no worries dear. taken from here : CENTURA fibroadenoma adalah salah satu 'benign tumor' yang bermaksud non-cancerous tumor yang berada di.. ehem.. di dada perempuan.. i mean breast. biasanya benda alah ni jadi kat young woman. biasanya benda ni akan muncul time menstruasi dan akan surut bila dah habis minggu menstruasi tu. macam mana nak tahu benda yang berketul tu adalah fibroadenoma? "Described as feeling like marbles, these firm, round, movable, and rubbery lumps range from 1 cm-5 cm in size and can be up until lemon sized lump" kiranya bulat macam guli, bergerak2 macam tikus (kalau kita rasa dia gerak pegi kekiri, jap ke kanan) dan tak sakit. Pengalaman aku : masa...

Adriani Adnan & Fatin Suhana

wow. blogger famous dua-dua ni. i bet lot of people already wrote about both of them. Two beautiful hijabis that caught my attention on my first sight. Sebenarnya ramai lagi fashionista bertudung yang lawa dan sangat cool contohnya fatin liyana, lady fira, shea rasol. Tapi dua orang ni saya suka sebab diaorang bagi inspirasi untuk berfesyen even pakai tudung bawal. Bukan benci fashionista ber-shawl, tapi.. muka saya ni tersangat-sangat la tak sesuai bila pakai shawl. nampak bujur pelik je. so bila sy suka tgk dieorang pakai, terfikir, alamak! kena pakai shawl baru nampak kemas, kalau pakai tudung bawal mesti tak kena. terus sedih. terus takda idea. terus jeles dengan orang yang pakai shawl nampak kemas dan cantik. So the merit goes to this two girl. Adriani Adnan. This cute Adriani ni dah lama saya follow blog dia. masa tu blog lama dia; Confessions of a Shoppaholic. First picture of her yang caught my eye was this nice yellow toga dress that time i was like, how come s...

the black and the white

i woke up this morning, and i realized. I need to stop giving hope. ------- Ironic. ------- Pagi tadi juga, suara seorang wanita, Kuat tak pernah menjadi alasan. Bijak tak pernah menjadi alasan. Indah tak pernah menjadi alasan. Gembira tak pernah menjadi alasan. Kamu. Hanya perlu yakin, untuk meruntuhkan sebuah tembok. Antara dinding. ego. sombong. dengki. Suatu hari, alasan yang tidak pernah menjadi alasan akan menjadi saksi. Mengheret kamu ke satu lubang kosong. pada, HATI kamu sendiri. Pada saat kamu kecewa pada diri kamu sendiri, kuat, bijak, indah, gembira. Memakan jiwa. Sebagaimana "Api yang membakar kayu kering"

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